Life's Set Backs with Blessings

In 2007 my husband and I

were planning our wedding. He had purposed in

January.

And the nuptials took place

in

September.

He wanted them to occur sooner.

But, in April we were thrown in a

complete tail spin

when

my health took a sudden turn

for the worse.

It was Easter weekend.

His family was coming to visit.

They live 2 1/2 hours away

and I had been dreading

it.

When I had sudden pain in my rib cage

on the left side on that

Friday evening

I attributed it to anxiety.

I was dreading their

visit just that

much.

My sleep that night was terrible.

I could lay only on my right side.

Not on my back.

Just on my side.

Saturday progressed.

I had gone to a

walk in clinic.

The next day I had to go back in

to get an x-ray done.

At the time

I had gone they were not

available to do testing.

In the meantime I had some pain killers.

Those

did

not

touch it.

Monday morning came.

I went in to get testing done.

They were waiting for the radiologist

to read my test.

I asked if I was able to leave

and was told yes.

I was a walking time bomb and did not know it.

They frantically called me.

Two things were going on that needed

immediate

attention.

First I was anemic.

I wasn't too surprised at that.

There was another medical

issue I had been dealing with

a few years that

had caused

that.

Secondly

was a pulmonary embolism.

During the course of Saturday I had gone

online to do a little research for myself.

I had seen that and was like nahhh.

That is just way extreme.

That nahhh became a

yup!

Once returning to the walk in clinic I was told

of my diagnosis.

Immediately I was sent to the

hospital where I stayed for a

week.

I am visiting this because of the

anniversary of it around the corner.

It was April 9th.

And secondly I had read about Serena Williams

suffering from the same thing.

Here you can read a little more about

pulmonary embolism ( aka PE)

along with signs, symptoms

and

what causes them.

Can I tell you that in the midst of

all of that I had the most

calm, peaceful feeling about myself.

Everyone was worked up.

I had a friend tell me

that I looked like

death.

Seriously a wash of serenity had

come over me. A feeling like I had never

experinaced before.

It was incredible.

While I was laying in my hospital bed

I had what felt like a hand on mine.

It was on my right hand.

No one was

there.

Soon to be hubby was on my left.

As far as could be

from my right side.

That time for me was marked not by the diagnosis or

what had occurred within my body, but what

had occurred within

those serene moments that were so personal.

The same feeling experienced when you deliver a child.